Peanut, Peanut butter and BELLY!

Yup. That just happened. I am pretty sure just that opener did three things, one  it got an amazing song from your youth stuck in your head (don’t be ashamed if you are spreading the jelly with your hands right now),  two it probably made your mouth water and crave this widely disrespected treat and for the final thing I bet it sparked your curiosity for whatever this  blogger is all about.

Firstly  my name is Bebe. I am a 31 year old wife (of almost 8 years) and stay at home mom to three of the cutest kids you have ever seen in your life.  Our path to parenthood is far from the old fashioned nine month marathon times three. Long story summed up in a couple sentences we were married for 7 years, we were foster parents and then within one years time our foster son moved back  home and we welcomed a one year old, a 4 year old and a newborn into our home and you guessed it  we adopted them. They are amazing and I will never feel worthy of being called their mama.

Before our forever family was formed or even thought of, It was just the three of us, my husband me and our foster son.  I was freshly diagnosed with Hashimotos Thyroiditis.  Which paired with an old diagnosis of PCOS really explained my weight issues.  That year (2014) I lost 42 pounds and I felt great! I wasn’t all the way done with my journey but I changed from someone who despised food logging and prepping to a very on top of it person.  Exercise is something I always enjoyed but it was getting into the habit of it that was the trick.

Anywho, fast forward to the year (2015) we experienced some major life changes. We went from a family of three to a family of six and then settled into a family of just five over Easter weekend 2015. Emotional eating, convenience eating, eating for the sake of eating….also being introduced to kid food! (peanut butter and Jelly crusts, am I right?) The list goes on. My double jogging stroller didn’t get used as often as I liked, I was living in a sleep deficit and I have to say to even attempt to combine my health/fitness world with being a mom of three littles pushed me on to the easy road. The fappy road. (fat and happy) Don’t get me wrong that was a choice that I alone let myself make. It isn’t their fault, I just couldn’t balance yet. We have a five, two and almost one year old now  so at least I am less sleep deprived.

I have gained my weight back, yet somehow learned how to love my body. I try hard everyday to be kind with my thoughts about myself, to embrace every picture I may look “fat” in as a moment I was blessed with and won’t get again. (instead of hiding those pictures deep in my hard drive) So I hope you enjoy my rants, insights and can relate to my struggles and successes along the way.  I have always wanted to hold myself accountable and help other people. So a blog would be the perfect mix of both those things. Plus lets face it if you enjoy writing, a blog can be a good fun hobby. As for the mommy bloggers out there it can give us a break, but right now I have two “cats” (my 5 yr old and 2 yr old) circling my feet waiting to make the kill as I type as fast as I can. #themomlife