It has been awhile since I have been on here. It’s still just me and my amazing husband and three beautiful children. My back burner is still in the same house and I have continued to utilize it. [escaping the back burner] But big health changes are a brewing and to be honest it freaks me out. No nothing terrible has happened and overall I’m happy as a clam, but what freaks me out is the fact I have given myself a hard start date to getting it together. Not hard as in difficult, hard as in an immovable, secure no looking back date.
December 26th, 2015. After all the hub bub but before I’m labeled a new year resolutionist I will be changing the state of my health permanently.
Things I know about myself and why this is indeed possible despite the level of “what am I doing” and “you have tiny children who own you” thoughts.
I’m stubborn, I’m dedicated, I have a fire in my belly that burns for more than food, I really do love fitness and healthy food (even though I have somehow forgotten that fact) and the one thing that motivates me and keeps it real at the same time is I have done a huge consistent chunk of this before. 42 pounds. Gone.
Sure with all of our family life changes and the emotional roller coaster of parenting, learning how to parent and dealing with the states legal system (for foster care and adoption) I lost my way. But thank goodness I left bacon crumbs so I can find my way again 😉
The truth is this is real life, which has an awesome mixture of greatness and messy. I have a 5 year old, a two year old and a soon to be one year old so I’m getting more sleep these days. We also have a great equipment set up in the garage. I’m ready. It’s time.
I’m also so very thankful for my supportive husband who will and has been helping me. It was him who affectionately called these pounds that came back my version of baby weight. (Since I didn’t give birth) which I really appreciated because it helped keep things in perspective. It’s not that I have just been a lazy bum swimming in a pool of ice cream (but seriously do they make those?), it’s the fact that I have been a busy mama who has had easy meals and take out a lot and maybe a lot of kid food too. Maybe. Ok I have…..but seriously when you love peanut butter like I do how can you not slap extra on their sammies so you can dine on the crust?????
I also really want to document everything. I like to journal and what is blogging if not just a public journal? I think it will be helpful to be able to look back to how far I have come.
It’s go time.